I went to the doctor this past week and HL3 had a good, strong heartbeat (we called our first child HLB for healthy little baby before she arrived). It is always reassuring to hear that beautiful sound especially at this point in the pregnancy when you don’t have many other symptoms. I am lucky in that I don’t show weight immediately, but the downside is that when I’m pregnant it takes me a really long time to actually LOOK pregnant. The result is that I just look chubby until the 6th month or so. It is not good for my ego. With no obvious bump and no more nausea I was getting a little nervous.
Anyway, I feel the need to take deep breaths because I am worried about I will manage loving all three of my babies. And how I will give them attention. And I will sleep. My son keeps waking up in the middle of the night for some unknown reason that I can’t figure out and I find myself thinking “how will they ever all sleep through the night?” I realize that lots of people have more than two children, but they are not my immediate family members so I feel out of my element.
So deep breaths. I have 6 months to figure it out.